30. Something I Miss
I’m starting the third week in quarantine, and while I honestly feel like it’s moving a lot faster than I expected, I miss a lot of things I took for granted. I miss morning announcements at school. I miss the bus rides to the job site with the kids. I miss stopping at my mom’s house after picking Bear up from school. I miss unpacking Bear’s backpack everyday. I miss kicking off my shoes when I come through the door after work. I miss throwing some PJs in a Market Basket grocery bag and spending a Friday night at my mom’s. I miss sitting outside a restaurant with an app for the table and a cold margarita. I miss sitting around a Learning Center table right after the bell rings and catching up with my work friends. I miss popping into Dollar Tree just to see what new trinkets they have. I miss my niece and nephew. I miss Boopy and Goob. I miss being able to make plans with people. I miss knowing when I’ll see people again.
31. Why I Blog
Because it feels less like shouting into the void than keeping a diary does. There are still some things I would never write here, some things that would get relegated to a diary, or to a vent session with a trusted friend, but it feels better putting things — thoughts, gratitude, goals, creative work — somewhere where others could stumble on it. It feels less lonely, and more “real.”
And with that, I finished. March did not end where I expected it to back at the beginning of the month. But, anyway. On to the next.
This morning, one of my work friends shared in an email that our school was still doing virtual daily announcements. I clicked on the link she sent and it took me to the schools TV and Video Production page, and a video of the young man (a Senior) who’s been doing the daily announcements everyday for the last four years. Something about seeing him sitting alone in his room and reading the announcements (“Today is Tuesday, March 31st, and it would have been a Day 2″) caught me really off-guard and made me cry.
On the flip side, today I had my second virtual conference (this time with my vocational staff and a couple of vocational students), and it was really reassuring and heartening to see everyone. Seeing them, both staff and kids, at home with their families, and to see what they’ve been doing to keep busy (lots of kids doing art challenges! Drawing, singing, dancing) has been very grounding. I have another conference next Tuesday at one that I’m looking forward to.
And I’ve started prep work for A-to-Z, because I function best if I throw myself into things (and I just feel better in general if I keep myself creative and productive). I’ve got some work done on the “A” and “F” entries, and I’ve got to say, working fast definitely makes a difference in quality (I already caught a major error in my “F” drawing, but I’m certainly not starting it over; maybe I’ll make it a “spot the error” challenge, and the winner can get a shout out, ha ha), though the quality is still much better than I was producing during my first Inktober.
I try to set myself daily goals, but today has been rough after a mostly sleepless night. The house is a mess and I have two week worth of laundry to fold, which I would like to get done before tomorrow, but tomorrow is Andy’s day off, which means a greater chance of being productive. We’ll see how things go.
On the self-care docket today, though, is hopefully a manicure, a few episodes of Gravity Falls, and finishing the library book due back on Friday.
It’s Tuesday, but hey, time is imaginary in quarantine. Stay safe, sane, and busy. Try something new, or rediscover your love of something old. Be kind to yourself and those around you.